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#1Levi Mahlet † 

My Retirement Empty Sun Jan 20, 2019 9:03 pm

Levi Mahlet †
This perhaps should not come as much of a surprise. Those who have known me longer on my time at this site have seen me walk away at times, come back again, rinse and repeat. Times have been attributed to muse, other times out of some sort of real life friction with another member(s). It's not unheard of that I come back again, but with each time, never quite to the same amount of enthusiasm as I had when I first discovered this site back in 2013.

I haven't been particularly quite over the year or so as far as my criticisms go. I don't doubt that in secret I've probably developed a bit of a reputation as toxic or as a troublemaker, and I will carry those without issue. I don't dispute that times I was perhaps out of line, perhaps justified in others.

However, I don't much seek to continually carry on with more of that drama, of me reading too deeply into something, coming to distrust a reasoning, or finding some sort of hypocrisy within a decision. It does not do me any benefit save for just frustrating me and contributing towards a lessened experience on the site as a whole, relative to what I hope for going in.

Even now, having recreated Levi, having explained myself to a few people as to the reasons behind it, which I don't feel the need to dredge up again or bring to the forefront, save for a hope that creating this character would more reinvigorate me as an RPer. But, even then I'm finding that enjoyment that I once had not being there again. Almost ironic given that a character that I as much built a reputation upon and did contribute towards some great content on the site with being what essentially became the nail in the coffin for me.

Arguably it could be said that me scooping was of my own mistake, and I wouldn't dispute that. The reasons behind it sound as far as I were concerned, and I felt whatever fallout that stood to come would be rectifiable in one manner or another. I still believe that, and at this point have no reason to believe that I was wrong in that respect. But, that aside, had I not or otherwise, brings to question would me sticking around being worthwhile, personal plot aside.

I don't think Augusta was a bad character, in the sense of a concept or idea. One who with perhaps more time I could have come to enjoy, but I think whether it were Levi or Augusta, I would be compromised in the sense that the level of enthusiasm that I had so long ago is no longer there, and to think otherwise is just me lying to myself.

Some of that also just stands to how the site has changed, which I have made my own criticisms and concerns known over the course of a bit of time, including that of recent days as to things such as the site. But that can also be attributed not an insult to the site, but rather just me as a disgruntled member not pleased by what they're seeing. And that may be just a changing of the times, of my point of view being a bit more outdated, certainly not as reflective of what we're seeing as a whole amongst the community here.

And there is nothing wrong with that, but perhaps more just an indicator that my time here has come to an end. To all of this, for what I may stand critical of, to members or decisions that I may not agree with, with frustrations, with a pair of characters who I created with hopes of being engaged and excited again only to be disappointed by my own expectations. However you want to splice it, it doesn't really say much other than I ought to walk away, and having stuck around as long as I have, I don't think that's wrong.

Like I said, I'm not going to air out dirty laundry or single out anyone, but everything plays a factor. And to be frustrated in aspect or another only for something else, as arbitrary or insignificant as it may be, to add onto that frustration, it isn't healthy.

I've had a good run here. A lot of good people whom I have RPed with, and unfortunately a good deal of people whom I hoped to RP with, only to realize those topics would be a prolonging of the inevitable. To those, to Bianca, Kon, Xandra, Faye, Akira, Chloe, Snow, and many others whom I had hoped to topic with, my apologies that such a topic won't come to be. But better that than a topic in which I would be going through the motions than thoroughly enjoying or making enjoyable to the other party.

So I've dragged this on long enough. I will remain on the Discord at least for a time; until eventually I'll find myself removed. I may check out the site every so often from that point, but fair to say, this day marks the last day in which Levi will be RPing here in any capacity.

#2Konyo 

My Retirement Empty Sun Jan 20, 2019 9:07 pm

Konyo

o.k

#3Venus Rosé 

My Retirement Empty Sun Jan 20, 2019 10:11 pm

Venus Rosé

sad to see you go levi, our fellow shark :( hope you have fun wherever you go and i’ll be looking forward to the day you’ll rp here again (in case you decide to come back)!



#4Sage † 

My Retirement Empty Mon Jan 21, 2019 3:02 am

Sage †
but you are such a fun and creative person ):
i hope you will find a better to go, but still do check the site for changes like you said though ;D
i would be glad to see you soon in the future but for now,
i pray for the best for you. <3




#5Jolyne Atreides 

My Retirement Empty Mon Jan 21, 2019 4:26 am

Jolyne Atreides

:(

Fair Levi, fair.

#6Zane 

My Retirement Empty Mon Jan 21, 2019 5:28 am

Zane
Damn, see ya Levi. It has been quite a ride.

#7Raquel 

My Retirement Empty Mon Jan 21, 2019 6:44 am

Raquel
OMG Levi, why am I finding this the moment I logged into the site today? I don't like that you are leaving at all! Come back soon! I want to RP with you.



My Retirement Y4RU1BP
#8Odin 

My Retirement Empty Mon Jan 21, 2019 8:20 am

Odin
Raging I never got a mention, and absolutely gutted to hear, but understandable.

If I think about every topic I've ever done, even outwith this site, it's probably no surprise that ours is the one that has had the biggest impact on me personally, my RPing style, and my decision making abilities. Shame we'll never get to have any more fun adventures.

You're always a joy to know, and I wish you well

#9Chloé Leclair 

My Retirement Empty Mon Jan 21, 2019 9:05 am

Chloé Leclair
Sad that we never got the chance to rp. Oh well, there is no point in it if you don't want to do it.

If you ever change your mind I'll welcome you back!

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